Texte - Lukewarm --------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------------------------------------------------- BOOK OF CONDOLENCE time, the constant enemy of us all i don't know if we're aware of it before we all have to submit, and inevitably beckoning the call. tragedy strikes and i have been not forwarned. bestowed with a search of power outstandig void, darkest hour, finally the beloved, dead is mourned. shackled by this heavy burden, i am now in days of yore, a tranquil stream, wilde awake, a convalescent dream, how can i process sudden pain, tell me how? contemplative change, mind-expanding event. to live is to die or to die is to live. the mourners are left alone, sharing the grief; why has it vome to such an end? is this the end? wholeheartedly, you planted the grain. wholeheartedly, you endured the pain. wholeheartedly, your mind was in strife. with a smile on your face expired your life lachrymal circumstance in crestfallen time. stop taking things for granted! and eat my way through the pain. i have the right to suffer, but i shall survive! if you lose your parents you might lose you past and in case of the death of descendents your future is gone! repentance! an iota of truth is what you search. Who is the last? can i possibly maintain a sound, itellegent mind... how to raise such energies? i am not a saint, dividing seas, but in the last attempt there's consolation to find. i am taken aback by anguish!!! it's an agonizing force... and still, in harmony we all dwell. death is a live source! death, is a life source! wholeheartedly, you saved us from strain. wholeheartedly, i inscribe my name. wholeheartedly, with respect and strength. i inscribe my name in the book of condolence. --------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------------------------------------------------- PLAYING GOD such a lovely lie, such a stupid hoax! philistina ignorance! now see, what you have done... once upon a time my age was apt to absorb your impressions proberly and now i apeal to primal instincts. an idol for the upcoming tribe! negative intake! you'll find yourself in my shadow cultivate! the disturbance of my impulse control aspects of fun! murder, an extroverted suicide. this is deranged! you forced my thoghts to brutalize... now i play god! i'm sorry! i am sorry for this playing god! i'm sorry! i am your nemesis! reenactment of sodom. what seems horrid to you is simply normal to me. you tried to dominate. but designed my blueprint and spawned your fate! receive the impact! my repulsions i direct into your face imminent assault! don't try to postpone the inevitable desimating your lifespan! where is your crushable bin? leniency! i have no such word for your kin... now i play god! i'm sorry! i am sorry for this. playing god! i'm sorry! i am your nemesis such a lovely lie, such a stupid hoax! philistine ignorance! now see, what you have done... once upon a time my age was apt to absorb your impressions proberly and now i appeal to primal instincts. an idol for the upcoming tribe! eve of cartharsis! erection, orgasm in the flickering flame powermad! symbiosis wi 'this violent game desecrate! your death i will keep fresh no intervention! until you are a twisted bag of rotten flesh now i play god! i'm sorry! i am sorry for this. playing god! i'm sorry! i am your nemesis! --------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------------------------------------------------- ACT OF GRACE mayhem risis. i wish to rot, sputum flows, containing blood, castration of my will to live; i'm a vivid contagion, marbled with grief. your saored oath, preservation of life! born out of naivety! biohazard! it seems to me that what you need are my pangs of death! that's all you breed! a biological circle isn't a prase! it's really important to me! disturbing the course, breaking the borders, you offend humanity! torture or blies? i'd rather die like this: don't you see it in my face? kill me! it's an act of grace! i want to be gifted with death! escape this omnivorous sickness, repressed by surgical wishful thinking, and your profane ideals! this morbid embrace! please bring me to fall! constant pain is washing through me! i'm drawn to my subterranean bed, but you're blind to my malady. my fear of death cremates in hellish combustion, set aflame by pain, my life's in vain. comatose hours with this trickling disease, have stolen the joy from my eternal peace... extenden terror, medication of drugs, resulting in my irony of life. your mission to heal transforms into torture. if there's no hope, then leave me be! torture or bliss? i'd rather die like this: don't you see it in my face? kill me! it's an act of grace! massive convulsions of my imbalanced body, i hate to carry on! this sordid synthetic insomnia! enough of this disequilibrium! i may sound sick, and in fact i am, but i'm sober considering justice! listen demi-god! my body is my own! and my anguish will always recur! torture of bliss? i'd rather die like this: don't you see it in my face? kill me! it's an act of grace! --------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------------------------------------------------- SUBSONIC FRICTION crushed into submission, i am forced to lie on my back. your sinister, fierce, obscene ideas, are reducing me to plantlife. irascible rapist! you don't want to kill me. wll, maybe, after the deed. you'd love to stab me from inside. and witness how woman bleed... you can't fight the temptation. forbidden gruits! the lure! lust represents your hatred, misogyny banishs the cure! you push me over the threshold of pain. stripping me naked, eating me raw! you overstepped my rupture limit, bearing these tornments is like hugging a saw... disgusting motherfucker! minority complex shoved up in your ass i retch in nausea! as you drival for unwilling flesh. and as you discover my innonce it gives you a reprobate kick! the resistence of my maidenhead enforces your throbbing prick! you stare at the trail of red seepage. and the urge for my sex prusues infinity. i powervomit and pass out! you tore the seal of my virginity... disgusting motherfucker! minority complex shoved up in your ass i retch in nausea! as you drivel for unwilling flesh. never! will you be satisfied. 'cause your consicience died. i spell your name ticket to trauma... and wish to be suffused with indifference. i might as well hold my wrist out to a razor... i am glad that i fell cold, it helps me to dull the pain mentally bleeding from subsonic friction! i know you'll do it again. you'll do it again!!! the stiring in your loins, my crying you call bliss insemination with a rusty tool is nothing compared to this! you deal with blood on a regular basis more frequent hatn the female cycle the coercive need to rape is you subtle coveting addiction... disgusting mogherfucker! minority complex shoved up in your ass i retch in nausea! as you drivel for unwilling flesh. -------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------- RECOIL senstize! yourself! my intellect forsees a minute feeling: enlightenment, building up! delivering a soathing blow! archaic knowledge, laid to rest, do not enfeeble, grow strong. my ego rears its ugly head, well don't gell me what is wrong! a new era, sweet an succulent, painful, honest, servere... fuck yourselft! you piece of shit! my schismatic point is here! this is the logic consequence of my mental privation. a perverted ploy was my cradle, but know i'm sick of this adulation! touch me jesus! but don't burn your fingers! 'cause this ain't no game. touch me jesus! but don't burn your fingers! excuses are simply lame!!! an inflamatory speech! frustraion was too long restrained. i need to be purged of a vast bulk of thougths! before they increase a thousandfold. don't give me no crap! you 'shit for brains'! your dirt! i inhaled! i'm fed up with the norm. no wonder why my breath was stale... god no longer asks for blood sacrifices, but i can't recognize no difference! now listen! staccato! one-track! your head! this is me! stagnancy! a word of the past! detrimantal stand! shut up and give yourself an enema! enjoy your downfall, or take my hand! touch me jesus! but don't burn your fingers! 'cause i turn a deaf ear to your moans. touch me jesus! scorch yourself! sucher! i wear a sordid crown of bones!!! --------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------------------------------------------------- ME, MYSELF AND I you, hereafer: enfeoffed and conveyed: helplessly you're beached ashore my isle of pleasure. once placid waters, now a churning sea, once cloistered crotch imbibing feces of self-denial, on you i exercise my sexuality! i can't help but feel superior, inferior, i'm torn between tow poles, seed and scorn, my romantic, tender side is fertile as a dead cunt, my stimulus snatched up by watching porn... me, myself and i me, myself and i wipe the smile of your face, lift you up to our place, me, myself and i so, you better watch your ass when i'm present. you better humbly beg to know my will. jump to it, obey my word, do my bidding, and my dreams, be advised to fulfill! no ransom is approprate to escape my carnal groove, just pay me with your entire body! a salary in seething flesh will suffice for now, later on i'll reap what i sow... me, myself and i wipe the smile of your face, lift you up to our place, me, myself and i miscarried emotions... deep depression in your eyes i see, come, crawl to me, the fun's yet to begin! me, myself and i, we're overdosed on sickening sex, fuck, is this just gross or a sin??? i don't know... me, myself and i your're nonplussed by my somber state of mind? have a closer look, now, this is what you find: my head, a cesspool of human ingredients; a cesspool of steaming refuse, amongst i feast on faesal matter, vaginal discharge, lukewarm... miscarried emotions! and the anticlimax hits you like a blow... --------------------------------------------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------------------------------------------