pERFECTION fAILED

i stumble about the confines,
of my anal quest
for perfection...

love and fear me, in a like degree.
no understanding,
i'm a mystery to me.

anger and self-doubt
in fruitful congregation!
i'm down on my knees,
in sick protestation!

i close my eyes, offer no resistance.
from whom did i inherit
this barren demerit?

moulded in the likeness of ancient foes,
to infringe the wholeness
of my soul...

the bond is torn asunder,
perfection failed.
nevertheless,
an exit I did create...

per! perfection!
fact, perfection!
perfection failed!
perfection fails...

i stumble about the confines,
of my anal quest
for perfection...

love and fear me, in a like degree.
no understanding,
i'm a mystery to me.

per! perfection!
fact, perfection!
perfection failed!
perfection fails...

by Sanjai Shah, September '94